So many thoughts and emotions were swirling around in my head and heart three days before I planned to kickoff our school year.
But I was far from feeling “ready.”
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Lessons still need to be planned and written out, flashcards cut and a daily schedule created.
When I finally got the baby (whom I will introduce you to next week) to sleep at midnight my mind was ready to tackle a few items on my to-do list but my body was not in agreement.
JUST. TOO. TIRED.
And so, off to bed I went only to be awakened again, and again and again by a sweet plump newborn who likes his eats!
In recent years, it seems that not feeling “ready” to start the school year has become commonplace for me.
In the midst of my wrestling, frustrations, and tears (yep, I cried while I prayed, cried while I read my Bible and cried while I wrote this!) the Lord comforted & steadied my heart with the following verses.
Proverbs 3:26
For the Lord will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught.
In that moment I had to acknowledge that my confidence scale was unbalanced; I was focused too much on my abilities (and lack thereof).
On the day I cried out to you, you answered me; my strength of soul you increased.
-Psalm 138.3
I literally felt such a relief and a release of the burden of not feeling ready after I cried out to the Lord.
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The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever.
Psalm 138:8
In all of this, I was humbly reminded of my frailty and God’s tenderness in the midst of that.
I was reminded of my finite strength and His infinite strength being perfected in my weakness.
So today, I’m throwing off the weight of unrealistic expectations and putting on instead joy and thanksgiving.
I’m resting in being able to start school while the lesson plans and schedule are still under construction.
Just like me.
What’s something that you’ve started before you felt ready? Tell me about it by leaving a comment.
I’m having a similar start to this school year, as we embark on a brand new approach to things. Thank you for those verses and sharing your heart. This is so similar to what God has been showing me through all of the uncertainties and “unreadiness.”
Rebekah,
It can be a challenge to feel ready when we break from what was familiar or comfortable!
Praying that your heart continues to be steady as you rest in Him. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment!